Metacognition: Organization

When I work on an essay or project, I normally come up with my ideas as I am writing or creating the project. I find that I get the most inspiration when I am in the moment and working on the project. Normally brainstorming isn't very helpful.

            Now that I'm actually thinking about the process I go through when I create something, I realize that the way my brain works in kind of funny. I easily become stressed, and one way to avoid that is being organized. I try to keep all my stuff together and avoid becoming overwhelmed.

However, when I am creating, one would think that for an organized person, there would be some organization or planning before a piece of work is completed. But to be honest, even as I'm writing this, I am literally just writing out word for word everything that I am thinking of. In a way I guess that is brainstorming, but it ends up being my final copy. I guess that whatever I write the first time is the complete truth, which is what I want people to see about me. Not some edited, changed work that I can barely consider my own. Sure, I would have made it, but it wouldn't be as truthful to me because I altered it based on what I thought other people would like to hear.

I think whatever I am doing now is working just fine for me. I don't think that I will consider changing the way that I write because then it wouldn't be Becca's writing, it would be Becca's teacher's writing. I don’t want to have my work be conformed into the ‘proper’ way to write. I want it to be unshaped and unchanged from what comes out of my mind. I'm sure that I would be able to get my thoughts more organized if I did a little bit of planning ahead of time, but based on past experiences of experimenting with that, it has just been too stressful and time consuming. I take time in what I write as it is, but the most creative ideas come up when I am in the middle of writing or doing a project.